I'm not sure who said it, although it sounds like Douglas Adams. "We are a small insignificant species living on a small insignificant rock orbiting a small insignificant sun in the back water of the universe."
There is also an old adage about living in the moment. About living each day as if it was your last, About taking time to smell the roses, etc.
In the past week or so I've ridden Kimmy exactly once. Part of this has been do to weather, part of it do to the fact that I wanted to check the pressure in the front tire since the last time I rode her their was a weird "wobble", for lack of a better term, which seemed to affect the bike. I made it home fine but concerned. Due to some crazy things that have happened in my life, I've not done that.
"No riding," I promised the lovely Susan, "till I get that looked at."
In the past, Susan's had some health issues. Which, sadly, came to the forefront again. This time however it feels different than her other health concerns. She and I are talking about what the future holds, how to prepare for the worst possible news. It's not a journey I've enjoyed or wanted to take. At least not yet.
While there is hope at the end of the tunnel, it's going to be an uphill battle. We both understand that.
The one year anniversary of my new position came and went without any celebration. I've been part of three different projects during that year, and was just given the opportunity to be part of a fourth, an opportunity I had to turn down because I was unsure of what the future held.
All this reminded me of how old I was becoming. How quickly things can change....in the blink of an eye.
Riding home tonight I looked into the sunset, amazed at the blues and the greys. A shade of pink so light it reminded me of a blush on a young girls cheek. I thought about how we affect the lives of the people we love and cherish. How each encounter can teach us something....change something.
....in the blink of an eye.
For now at least this blog is going on hiatus. Till we get a little more answers, a little more information. Or, more likely than not, I get a bug up my ass to write again. For now though...
Thank you for your understanding.
4 comments:
You and Susan are in my thoughts Rob.
Sonya - I accidently deleted your comment. As for everyone else thank you for your support.
Long story short Sue may have a rare form of cancer. Nothing is official yet since we are waiting for 1 final test, although everything else is pointing in that direction. We are trying not to worry our friends and family till we know a bit more. Probably in the next week.
Perfectly understandable Robert. My brother-in-law was just declared cancer free this week, proof that good things can happen. Post when you can and hang in there.
Lowell
Hang in there and hope for the best. That is all you can do. Know you have a huge support system on the blogisphere and we will help in any way we can.
Hugs and good thoughts to you and Susan.
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